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[24 Jul 2003|04:19am] |
So wow, I think I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. The rock being Nick, the hard place being my career. Nick is the rock, because that's what he is to me. He's my rock. He's the strong one of us two and he doesn't even know it. He's the strength that I feed off of when I'm up doing that show everynight. He's the reason I am even still here. If I hadn't had him in my ear telling me that I could do anything at all that I'd ever put my mind to. I would have given up that day Ruben won. I would have went home and decided that it wasn't in gods plan for me to be in the public eye. That he'd have me pursue other options. And I would have been ok with that. But then I met Nick, and he just, he changed it all around. He made me all of the sudden wanna reach the top, to leap over bounderies, to hop over road blocks, to knock down walls. It's because of him that I'm even able to say that I've made it this far.
My Career is the hard place because, Now it's making my rock crumble. Having this career isn't easy, it's not a light road to walk. Everything isn't handed to you on a silver platter just because America thinks your an idol. It's hard work. Life changes, circumstances that once were, may no longer be able to be. But that doesn't mean that I should lose my rock, because the hard place can't fit with it. One thing he taught me was that there are no boarders that will stop me. No boxes that I can't get out of. I won't let my career tear down, what he and I have. I won't sit by and watch the only thing worth fighting for in my life, leave without my word.
My hard place wouldn't exsist if my Rock wasn't planted firm. My Rock will not be moved. My Hard place will have to learn to live with it.
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[17 Jul 2003|04:33am] |
I have been busy, wooooo No free time whatsoever...
I've had Photoshoots, Videoshoot.. The tour.. spending time with Nickay.. My life is like a circle and I seem to walk it everyday. But you know what I wouldn't change anything at all.
I wish I could give more time to Nick, I feel like sometimes he feels like he gets the shortend of the stick.. which isnt' true at all. I give him every part of me. He has the potential to be my future if he wanted too.
Wow, man.. A future that I would so look forward too. *nods, skips off to find Nickay*
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[03 Jul 2003|01:07am] |
Ok I'm home and I want see Nick.. where are you?
::dangles cookies:: Baby I wanna see you come out and play!!!
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[01 Jul 2003|02:31am] |
Ok so what can I do then?
I don't know what to do????
But he's hurting!! and that sucks....................
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[16 Jun 2003|01:46am] |
Wow, so my single is doing really good, -shakes head- I didn't even think it would sell. Now I know your saying. Clay are crazy.. but I'm just me and really I have a single -shrugs- not like me..
And I'm on the next edition of Rolling Stone Mag.. hot damn.. I'm like the IT Factor all wrapped up in a scrawny little white boy with a voice.. I'm just in awe of everything that happens to me on a daily basis..
And then there's my private life. -smiles- and you know I think that I couldn't possibly ask for anything better. He's awesome you know. He's just like this man who is willing to forfeit all for me. And I'd be ok with doing the same for him..
I'm happy -smiles- Happy and content.. isn't that really what we all look for?????
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[02 Jun 2003|05:30pm] |
Clay's been a busy boy, and Nick's here so that makes it all better. I've been doing press out the wazooski and the studio -smiles real big- god the studio is my favorite place to be. I just sit there in awe that, I even get to be there. And I had a meeting with Clive Davis.
Hello people this is the one and only CLIVE FREAKING DAVIS. And he had a meeting with me? What is that about? So yes I don't think I've ever been this busy. But even in being Busy I am loving my life.
I get to persue a dream I have wanted my whole life, I'm making an album and I'm getting perform on a stage in front of millions of people. Gah you have well ok if you a performer you do have an idea but one word sums it all up WOW.
I get to spend time with an amazing person who I am sure, is just totally out of his mind thinking of me the way he does. But you know he calms me down and he's just like a breath of fresh air. Yes folks.. He could be the one. but keep that on the hush hush.
WOW!
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[27 May 2003|04:23am] |
HELLO I'M CLAY AIKEN AND I MISS MY BOYFRIEND
Other than that life has been hectic, so much to do in so little time.
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[13 May 2003|02:32pm] |
Big night ahead of me.
I hope to be on after the show so look for me, but until then I am off rehearsing just wanted to drop a note before all got to busy for me to do so.
Nick needs to come to the show -nods- I have front seats for you so I can admire you from the stage!
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[11 May 2003|01:25pm] |
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Reheasal for the show wow it's been hectic. I'm just trying to work hard so that I can have some kind of hope you know!
Well I miss Nick -insert sad face here- I was thinking about him the other day!
That's all your getting.. NICK HIT ME UP feel free
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| Would you want me when I'm not myself |
[06 May 2003|01:20pm] |
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So in my lame attempt to lift my spirit I went looking around to see what people like YOU -points to everyone reading his update- think about me -points to self- See I told you I was lame.
Clay is an awesome singer and if he doesn't get into the top two in the end I will never watch American Idol again... Go Clay!
I can't be the cause of someone never watching the show again, that would be sadness for me.
I think Clay will win, I don't get whats so wonderful about Ruben! I mean he can sing sorta but clay is definatly better! :)
Ruuuuuuuuben's a teddybear, I love that guy. But they think I'm better can I get a w00t w00t?
Ok really I won't do that anymore.. I'm too lazy to look through the threads -laughs-.
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So the show is tonight and I'm nervous! You all should watch and give me support -nods- cause that would so rock all of Nicks sock drawer -smiles-. I hope to be around after the show so I can meet and talk to some of you guys.
But until then be sure to watch the show and be my friend and VOTE FOR ME!
sneaks into nicks room and digs around Till then I'll be chillen in the studio practicing for tonight!
I did my layout you should go look
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| There's a new number for you |
[05 May 2003|01:56pm] |
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Bet you didn't know that Clay was adorable.
I have a to do list:
1.Try to Rock all of Nicks body Socks.
2.Speak more Metaphorically
3.Turn off the lights
4.Dance more often
5.Paint over Nicks door so no one knows it's his :-P
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6.Sue Joshua
7.buy more cowboy hats
8.learn out to grind
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| Introducing Idol number 4 |
[05 May 2003|02:34am] |
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-waves- I'm Clayton Aiken from that tiny tv show called American Idol, I know you've never heard of it right? I know I know. Who watches Reality tv anyway I wouldn't if I wasn't on it -winks-
Well this is me -spins in a circle- wanna know more you'll have to use that thing called aim and you can get me at idol me clay I'll be waiting!
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